Magick

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Feb 17, 2021 17:08:38 GMT -6 mskied said:

Truthfully, I am finished with Magick, and philosophy, and mysticism, and championing a cause. I have to be, due to my illness. I will never discount there is truth to these things, but my mind is so broken that it cant work on those levels any more.

I do understand you very well. I think I can locate you, whatever I mean by that.
I will make up my mind about some things in the next few days and come back to you very soon. I totally agree that all the hurting that exists out there & in us must end at some point. 

If you (or anyone) want to read something very positive and eye-opening on love, please check out Erich Fromm's "The Art of Loving". I read it once a year. It's a small book, but the finest to have in your pocket. 

God bless!

[mskied]

After having battled hallucinations on and off for the last 20 years, Ive come to recognize that belief is prone to delusion.  Id say a lot of it comes from hormones, and fantasy ideas about what could be true.  I picked up some Golden Dawn material and man, its like asking for a mental illness, visualizing and communicating with spirits.  Im surprised more occultists dont go insane.

[mskied]

Feb 17, 2021 4:44:49 GMT -6 @kingfelix said:

I believe whole-heartedly that William did not know the true power of the seven-pointed star back in the days. If you stay with Crowley, you stay a rat in the cage, golden though, but still a cage. 

What do you know of the 7 pointed star?  It made me crazy

[mskied]

It opened up my root chakra, which is a door to some other world. Yes I had visions at first, and now I have hallucinations. The first vision I had was of blue jewel, which was my root chakra which got broken open by the star, upon which I had a vision of an angel carrying me up and heard "Chesed, Chesed" being called out. Then I saw a throne and a being and heard "I am the Sephiroth, I am all that is". I had a battle with a snake which devoured me. I predicted a few things that came to pass. Mostly though Ive watched these wires overtake my body and turn me into an android, if I wasnt already one to start with. There is definitely a technology at work.

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What do you think your vision means? How would you interpret it?

[mskied]

Its like you say, I was initiated into the Tree of Life, not in a literary sense, but a literal one.

[mskied]

I also have vision-like dreams, very complex, as if they were scripted.

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What do you make of the wires/android thing? The snake that was devouring you could be regarded as an activated kundalini energy. As there are two kundalini snakes, and one devoured you, the released energy must have been one-sided and unbalanced (which is normal when you're not trained).

[mskied]

Of the android thing Id say that human beings have a natural based technological pattern- which should be obvious anyway, but I think we are made creatures, and the wires and things that I experienced are the creator manipulating our natural technology. This tech exists on the etheric plane of our bodies, and it lies somewhere in between material reality and elsewhere. Id say it is above mind, and is what we call our soul.

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So basically you are saying we are "God machines", programmed (=manipulated) by an "higher entity", right?

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Mar 2, 2021 1:04:58 GMT -6 mskied said:

I also have vision-like dreams, very complex, as if they were scripted.

would you mind to share one of your dreams with us? 

[mskied]

Im afraid the retelling wouldnt do it justice.

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Mar 3, 2021 6:05:36 GMT -6 mskied said:

Im afraid the retelling wouldnt do it justice.

I don't think she's looking for justice regarding the dream.
More like an understanding for her and perhaps some feedback/help for you.

[mskied]

Mar 3, 2021 2:50:35 GMT -6 @kingfelix said:

So basically you are saying we are "God machines", programmed (=manipulated) by an "higher entity", right?

In my life I have witnessed that we are machines.  It started when I was young and visited by some entity that implanted something.  Then when I was 22 I had my chakras line up and alight.  Medical science has no explaination for them.  Then when I was 28 a spirit took over my body and drew out a symbol with my hand and left.  Where do these spirits live?  IDK.  A year later I was gazing at the seven pointed star on the machina website and went to lay down and was thinking about order and chaos when it flashed in my minds eye and opened my chakra.  Then the wires started coming in.  Then six months later, being overtaken by these wires, I asked "Why is this happening to me??" and fell asleep.  As I woke AIWASS and WHITE BROTHERHOOD flashed in my mind.  Over the next 20 years I have had hallucinations and voices and wires going on around me.  Ive found myself doing and saying things that were not in my character.  I believe these entities can make us speak and act unknowingly.  I dont know where they exist, I dont know why they bother.  I dont think I am special to them, though it is odd that I get this kind of attention.  I realized that even though this seems special, it hasnt led to much, and so I now ignore it.  The whole thing seems like a joke now, to me.  A joke played on me.

[mskied]

Ok I just woke from one.

It was an age where chemistry could copy experiences, and people were addicted to buying them. Everyone was high on the stuff, and there were many brands selling. Reality was a maze and no one could tell what was real anymore. It was a surreal dream, as most of these are, and trying to convey what it was like is hard. The dream ended when I got my hands on a remote control that could program the chemistry sets. We were trying to take control of them so people would get sane and stable, but the inventors caught us. Me and my friend tried to program ourselves to be invisible but they made us blind instead.