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Post by shadowmaker on Apr 28, 2016 13:04:54 GMT -6
The things you say lifetime cause damage, more so than listening to music.
I've seen plenty of things posted here that are all fun and games to some of you, but actually trigger ptsd hell for me. And cause no trust to be built. And it's very strange considering the years of discussion and conversations with some here. It's flat out fucked up to hinder progress made
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Post by shadowmaker on Apr 28, 2016 13:19:07 GMT -6
This also applies to shamse.
Sham-se. What a sham.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 28, 2016 14:37:40 GMT -6
The things you say lifetime cause damage, more so than listening to music. I've seen plenty of things posted here that are all fun and games to some of you, but actually trigger ptsd hell for me. And cause no trust to be built. And it's very strange considering the years of discussion and conversations with some here. It's flat out fucked up to hinder progress made I apologize if any of my playing has affected you in any adverse way...not my intent...I don't know what things I may post, will trigger something for you...what you see with me here is just me...I will always find laughter in things...there will always be chaos in and around us...I go through my chaos just as everyone else does...I get quiet at times, I get playful at times etc...and I know how to take care of my business when need be...laughter and stress cannot coexist, so having a little fun and laughter is actually very good for the spirit...Many ZEN masters have great laughter with each other... I won't apologize for playing...I am a big girl, I know my intent...I don't go around making fun of anyone, nor trying to hurt people...YES I may laugh at things...but not in a making fun of way...there is a difference...I hope you don't think any of my playing/laughter was directed at you, for it wasn't...I am not trying to mess with you or anyone's mind... I personally don't think I will ever be one of those "always" serious kind of people...always being somber, just isn't me...I can very much be at peace without being somber all the time...and laughter is good for the soul...with that said, I will also never be one of those people who "always" laughs... |
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Post by shadowmaker on Apr 28, 2016 19:01:01 GMT -6
The things you say lifetime cause damage, more so than listening to music. I've seen plenty of things posted here that are all fun and games to some of you, but actually trigger ptsd hell for me. And cause no trust to be built. And it's very strange considering the years of discussion and conversations with some here. It's flat out fucked up to hinder progress made I apologize if any of my playing has affected you in any adverse way...not my intent...I don't know what things I may post, will trigger something for you...what you see with me here is just me...I will always find laughter in things...there will always be chaos in and around us...I go through my chaos just as everyone else does...I get quiet at times, I get playful at times etc...and I know how to take care of my business when need be...laughter and stress cannot coexist, so having a little fun and laughter is actually very good for the spirit...Many ZEN masters have great laughter with each other... I won't apologize for playing...I am a big girl, I know my intent...I don't go around making fun of anyone, nor trying to hurt people...YES I may laugh at things...but not in a making fun of way...there is a difference...I hope you don't think any of my playing/laughter was directed at you, for it wasn't...I am not trying to mess with you or anyone's mind... I personally don't think I will ever be one of those "always" serious kind of people...always being somber, just isn't me...I can very much be at peace without being somber all the time...and laughter is good for the soul...with that said, I will also never be one of those people who "always" laughs... No this wasn't directed at you |
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Post by shadowmaker on Apr 28, 2016 19:14:39 GMT -6
This also applies to shamse. Sham-se. What a sham. I don't mind your knives, sister, as long as you don't hurt yourself. That's the only rule in this! May you believe it or not, I CRAWLED out of a very abusive relationship four years ago... violence, gaslighting, stalking, all inclusive... That little piece of shit, that's left of me, you may think it's a "sham"... but to my friends and family (who went through this nightmare together with me) I am more a "sham-rock", for I am lucky to be alive and very happy to be... and that's all that matters, to survive Have a good day! <3 Minus the violence, similar situation Nobody is calling you a piece of shit here. I honestly get scared that he will try to interact with me on here. And when I read things that cause a trigger I panic and get anxiety. It's not a daily occurrence. Sometimes I brush things off, but other times I cant. I have to express this or it will eat at me. Fortunately you managed to get out and have supportive people help you Some people don't have that. You survived, and keep going forward is inspiring knowing better days are ahead. Thank you |
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Post by Deleted on Apr 29, 2016 4:23:00 GMT -6
The things you say lifetime cause damage, more so than listening to music. I've seen plenty of things posted here that are all fun and games to some of you, but actually trigger ptsd hell for me. And cause no trust to be built. And it's very strange considering the years of discussion and conversations with some here. It's flat out fucked up to hinder progress made
I thought about that. You're right. Things have to be said but when it's done, it's not a good way to come again, and again, and again into the same thing.
And, frankly, I feel no more that I'm not listened. And I feel no more there something to remain being understood.
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Post by shadowmaker on Apr 29, 2016 8:56:31 GMT -6
It's not about to come again and again and again into the same thing.
It's actually about the brains receptors being triggered by something and that's not always an easy battle to retrain. Some days are fine and some days are not.
It's not pleasant when it does happen.
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Post by shadowmaker on Apr 29, 2016 9:00:48 GMT -6
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Post by shadowmaker on Apr 30, 2016 8:35:35 GMT -6
Minus the violence, similar situation Nobody is calling you a piece of shit here. I honestly get scared that he will try to interact with me on here. And when I read things that cause a trigger I panic and get anxiety. It's not a daily occurrence. Sometimes I brush things off, but other times I cant. I have to express this or it will eat at me. Fortunately you managed to get out and have supportive people help you Some people don't have that. You survived, and keep going forward is inspiring knowing better days are ahead. Thank you Love you, shadowmaker. I feel home in your knives... don't worry.<3 And I mean it by all my scars (no longer wounds! ;-) ) God bless you (if there is any) <3 Take care <3 Scars become brave stories Disclaimer:No knives were thrown ♡ |
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Post by shadowmaker on Apr 30, 2016 8:35:55 GMT -6
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Post by Deleted on May 4, 2016 14:10:31 GMT -6
Well my musical tastes are all over the place...that explains a lot...lol
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Post by shadowmaker on May 5, 2016 9:14:41 GMT -6
I think that's a good thing rather than how many are just listening to specific genres such as pop/hiphop.
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Post by shadowmaker on May 7, 2016 9:56:27 GMT -6
Where's the positive impact full messages from the rap/hip hop artists? Why aren't they speaking a loud message to encourage the youth?
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